Recently someone said to me "I sometimes think you are an atheist, its like you don't believe in anything".
Now this is troubling.
And since there was no specific example of what I had said or done that was cited to give me some opportunity for explanation, I'm now left wondering what it was I did -- or didn't do -- that gave someone that impression.
I will admit to having had doubts. Its not that I don't believe that God exists, or that He knows what's going on down here. But I can say that I've never had that "flash of lightening" feeling that people talk about. I guess that's reserved for folks that are already WAY ahead of me on this level.
So to a large extent I guess I feel like I'm sort of stumbling along, trying most of the time to be a good person tho' I'm not always, to give back to folks with less than I have.
I'd like to have that "I'm sure of it all" feeling that some folks say they have, but I guess I've taken too many detours along the way.